i am one messed up young adult.

SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME.
and this is why i hate myself!
i speak whats on my mind,and regret it later.
i want new equipments and my mom offered money,and i said no.
i want presents,and i got it,i feel bad.
i want a car,and now my mom is talking about it,i said no.
because it will cost a lot of money.

SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?
am i stressing over money too much? ugh!
as much as i want things,i just hate it when people spend money on me.
i just need my parents to spend money on my food,my internet and electricity :P
then thats fine by me hahaha
but if its for something else,i need to think about it T_T
i dont even knoww!the fuck is wrong with my head.
maybe i just think money is a big deal,even a dollar is precious -_-
and that reminds me!i need to pay back a friend of mine RM1 XD
i should just buy him a RM1 drink or something XD
RAWWWWWWWWR this is messing with my brain -_-
and i still intent on paying back for my cameras,my godwhoknowswhere guitar,and my MCR rm200 merchandise and a few hundred things T_T once im working and have a steady income.
LOL im so messed up,but thats just me :)
i dont like owing people.hahaha *sigh*