nineteen .

okay wow i cant believe im already NINETEEN!
which means im almost twenty and will leave my teen years oh gosh and im an adult :O
reality doesnt seem to make sense to me right now XD
not gonna lie,i am scared of growing up.
thinking about responsibilities,finance,and work. wow i cant believe im entering that world.ive realised that now i am nineteen,i have to change.i cant be like how i used to be (expect for my kpop fangirlness,i wish to continue that aha) so now im trying to stay more positive,try not to get mad or annoy easily,and this is something i really want to change,i dont want to show my angryness,butthurt feelings/emoing to others.i shall face everyone with a smile on my face :)
so,um this year,i asked my mom to not buy me any birthday cake,because i just dont want her to spend some money on these petty little things for me.its better if she kept the money for something more important.and everything did not went well today.
i planned to go out and snap some photos for my assignments but i was feeling so terrible,i didnt have any strength to stand up.YES,i was SICK. coughing like freaking hell it almost feel like my asthma is coming back T_T
but im okay,its not the first time i got sick on my birthday ahah !
and theres a reason why i didnt showed my birthday on facebook. i wanted to see who cares and remembers.and i was quite happy to see that many of my friends remembered :') . even the unexpected ones XD maybe someone told them,but still :)
and theres one particular text that i recieved made me happy for the rest of the day.
eventhough its not much,im happy to read all the wishes given to me :D
♥