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you can hate me for saying this but im sorry,i just dont know,
i dont feel like i belong with them.
their lifestyles and mine are the total opposite.
i dont have a glamorous life . i dont always get what i want . i dont go to fancy places .i dont have suprise parties . i dont have anyone to give me presents .i dont have anyone to help me out . i dont have anyone to hear out my problems .i dont have anyone to express my feelings to .i dont have someone to call and seek for advices .
everytime i try to open up and about to share whats in my head,ill get ignored or they listened,but changes the topic to them afterwards,and i was forgotten.
maybe right now,im just being so emotional and people might say i take things for granted .
honestly,i dont even like where i am right now. and being close with these people is kinda challenging for me.sometimes i feel like ive changed so i looked like i fit in.
but in reality,im a whole different person.i just dont like being what i am right now.and everything that had happened recently,it just so fucked up.ive lost trust in mostly everything.and i might lose someone who i really care for because of these stupid attitudes.
i dont know.and the reason why im ranting in my blog right now is because i have noone to talk to,because noone seems to care.and ive been told that my problems are not important,and it hurt me so bad .it still does everytime i think about it.