excitement?

waitingforexcitement.

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hmm its already wednesday,and i feel so empty.i didnt do anything.my life is so boring.im always alone in this house and all i have is the internet.and music.i wish i was busier.i wanna do something.something that gets me out of the friggin house.theres no excitement in my life.i have plan on so many things to do during my semester break.i want to go to so many places.i want to go on a vacation that i never got to go.lack of money frustrate me -_-.looks like i have to hold on to my plans a little longer,coz im positive none of my plans will come true.and it makes me so angry.its a little too much too count on your friends when it comes to having a trip or going somewhere else.and for sure i cant count on my family to take me on a vacation somewhere.just the thought of it makes me giggle.and my hair is falling out again.a lot more than it used to.and its scaring me.i feel like im waiting for something,but im sure what is it im waiting for.all i know right now,im longing for a vacation.somewhere cold,windy,peaceful,beautiful.i need that.and im about to go crazy thinking about it.help T_T.