first driving

so yesterday was my first driving class -_-
suprise suprise,i got appa's cousin as my teacher
he kept making jokes and talk and sing T_T
and i was like,,freaking nervous once i sat on the drivers seat
my legs were shaking and my hands were numbed T_T
he said i did pretty well compared to the other bad drivers.
im not sure to take that as a compliment or what XD
*sigh*
i cant believed im about to say this but,
i hate driving.
well,for now at least
i got honked by a car rofl
SHEEESH first time driver here you jackass
and i kept going in the wrong lane rofl
and my u-turn.
EPIC FAIL T_T
well maybe not epic fail lol but i suck at it XD
*sigh* i just wanna get this over it quickly T_T
and we're gonna go drive up a hill on wednesday
me=scared as hell T_T
WTF yeah im scared of driving now
i dont wanna drive!hahahaha
i hope ill pass the test coz theres no way in hell im paying again
MY MONEY T_T


so i was thinking of a situation that i onced have to go through rofl
a very amusing one i must say..
something very entertaining for a lot of my friends rofl
me,living in a crazy fandom,
full of fantasies,daydreaming,obsessions,fangirlism and others
im just so glad that im not like her,
even if im a very very hardcore fan of something or someone for quite some time,
im so glad i didnt turned out like her.
those kind of people are the saddest.
pathetic i must say.
being a hardcore fan is fun,but just dont go overboard
its like his/her fandom is controlling their life.
the kinds that will make people think that you've lost it.
no use in making up lies so that people will find you interesting and shit.
aint gonna happen babe.those things only happens in your dreams.
so yeah when i think about it,im glad im not living like that rofl
and im glad noone that i honestly cared about are living that kind of life too ^_^


argh!im so mad!its not like i asked for something hard.
its just a simple thing that she could at least help me do.
i seriously dont know how she act her role anymore.
for god's sake,she didnt wanna do it coz its probably none of her business
but fuck,she should help me.its not like she gave me everything.
its not like i asked her to give me a million dollars or a new handphone or a new house or something.
fuck,i dont know how to treat her anymore.
does she even cared that im miserable almost everyday?
and just by looking at them i get very tense and angry.
i just,,dont wanna live here anymore.
i might as well live by myself.
coz thats how i feel since a couple years ago.
*sigh*
i pray to god that ill never be like her.
god im so mad and tense i could cry and tear this house apart!
*breathe in breathe out*


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Kyujong ah~ good boy
happy birthday my dear XD